As a team, lately we’ve started referring to our lives as a proverbial roller-coaster ride. This is very true. 🙂 We’ve also commented that we are spoiled for normal life forever. This also feels a bit true, although I hope that I can always be content in whatever circumstances God has me in.
Over the past few weeks, we’ve had lots of excitement as God brought lots of ladies to our banquet. We’ve had more excitement as many of them signed their names as interested in the training program that was supposed to start this week. We cried some tears and prayed hard when we had to turn away some who really wanted to come, but couldn’t because of legal status (still believing God can change that eventually). We saw the list of twelve dwindle to 1, up to 4, up to 9, down to 1, then 2, and finally settling in right around 4. Then we entered the week, and couldn’t start training because it went down to 1 again. Currently it’s at two, and we’re praying for more before we start on Monday, Lord willing.
That’s why I say our life is a proverbial roller coaster ride. Sometimes all you can do is throw your hands in the air and either scream or laugh, knowing that there’s not a thing you can do except trust God and keep moving forward.
And is it worth it? Absolutely. Every minute of agonizing uncertainty, every tear, every prayer prayed, every person we’ve connected with and loved and hugged, every time we’ve looked at each other and said, “Here we go again!”
One of our leaders sent us an email last night:
In the same way that the person who fills his mind and actions with fantasizing, pornography, and straying eyes is credited by God with being involved in adultery; so those of you who pray, give out invitations, plan, conduct banquets, schedule classes, etc. are credited with discipleship even if no one comes!!!!
We know that what we’re doing is not for numbers. That doesn’t mean we don’t get wrapped up in it and question ourselves or what we’re doing when the numbers aren’t what we’d like to see. But it’s God’s work, and His plan is good, even if it’s not what we had envisioned it to be.
That’s why we can ride the roller-coaster, get to the bottom and say, “Ok, God, what are you up to now?” And grin and hold on for dear life.
I won’t fear what tomorrow brings
With each morning I’ll rise and sing
My God’s love will lead me through
You are the peace in my troubled sea
The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strong rock, in him will I trust; my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my high tower.(Ps. 18:2)
We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield. (Ps. 33:20)
I’m just thankful today for peace in the midst of chaos. For a Lighthouse when the waves get really big and we can’t see anything around us. It’s been wild, but it’s been good, and it just gets better. 🙂